Navigating Stagnation

For most of my adult life, everything has been about the rush to finish. You don't have time to slow down because there is a career to build, people to fall in love with, family to start and say goodbye to.

Life has a funny way of moving way to fast that people feel an urgency to finish things today with a mix of time going so incredibly slow that people can feel like they accomplished nothing. I know for myself in the military our tasks and actions had a hard deadline that could not wait till tomorrow to finish and must be done in that moment.

Today, I go to college, I work out, and I try to find my way into my industry. I teeter on the military drive to be done today; to have an established writing and acting career and to be in some measure successful in it while also trying to remember its not a race. Where I want to be in life takes time and years of dedication to get there, rarely leading to success in short effect.

Yet, I cant help but feel that I could do more and be more if I knew where to start. Part of my personnal stagnation is the desire for success without the knowledge of how. I want to act and know that it requires training and repetition, and also where are the acting classes I should attend? How do I trust they are good at what they do and will be useful?

In that same breathe I want to get into content creation to help facilitate a following and find some measure of success on the internet and yet I think we over estimate how easy it is. Where do people find what is trending online to get engagement? How do you navigate anxiety? Where does someone find a mentor for that?

Alot of the questions I ask have been asked a hundred times on Reddit, Facebook and even support groups and tend to lead to the same three answers:

• You have to just do it

• Just remake what you already saw

• Move to LA or NY

I'll say it, its bad advice and disengious to the situation and I think its like that because people misunderstand the question. The career field I want is full of competition and comparison. Everyone wants to be the next big thing but not everyone can be the next big thing, so people assume the question of "how?" is meant to be indicative of asking how to be famous.

That's the exact opposite of what I and probably plenty of others are asking. I know personally for me I want to find a mentor, someone to guide me in the industry, help me find reputable talen agencies and give me advice to enter the industry, the rest is up to me and luck.

As I work to finish my degree I am unsure what the future holds. Its my hope to start in entertainment I just hope by then I have found that person that I can look to as i do it.